Rested

I have rested this weekend, and it only happened because I worked out.
It is hard to admit but I have not worked out in months.

I recognize I have to change, and I will change. I know being specific
will help so here is my goal: to workout at least twice a week.

I know it is possible. I know.

About Me

Balance a goal every human should strive for. Last week I was
confronted with a revelation. As an international student, than
resident I've learned to step back, and be quiet. It's hard to be
assertive in a foreign land. The hardest is to know how soft/hard
should I present my voice, so in doubt I stayed quiet, and invisible.

It worked for a while, but not long enough. It surfaced in
supervision, was exposed on a research meeting. Scary and empowering
at the same time. I'm looking forward to see where this new assertive
me.

Douglas Ribeiro
Counseling Psychology PhD Student

Research

Being part of a scientist/practitioner PhD program has its advantages
and dis-advantages.

The opportunity and privilege of exploring the world in a psychologial
is a clear advantage. Having professors with a lifetime of experience
one door knock away is priceless.

"With power comes resposibility". With science/knowledge comes
practicum/burnout.

I love the feeling of progression and development research gives me.
It is a unique and fulfilling feeling. Practice on the other hand
feels overwelming and taxing. I hope to achieve some productive
balance/harmony.

Yes, I am a dreamer

Posted from my iPhone

Balance and Persistance

I just realized how important it is balance my PhD adventure. I hurts to observe a group for an hour and a half, then follow with four sessions back to back. By 7:45pm my brain was shutting down, my body was numb, and my counseling skills went down with it.

Without a doubt last Tuesday was the hardest day of my first year in this program.By the weekend Vanessa was able to see the impact of that week on my psyche, and everything else. She asked, "is it going to be like this for ever?". Tough question, specially when you don't know the answer, the only thing I had was hope. Hope that it would not be like this, that last week was a fluke of nature and that everything was going to be OK.

Well it got better this week. I am glad I did not give up (just being sarcastic).

I'm back, at least for a little while (persistence is good, but balanced).